Diary: Excuses Without I

yelloooo again
did not feel like blogging opened break from routine
 little misery in peace is welcomed
especially in this confusion of
summerfallwinter

working on Mawusi fw15
weighty feelings of anguish from killings of people of skin color
 soaking too in financial worries
  Harry Potter & the Sorcerer’s Stone a distraction
then Regarding the Pain of Others
Sontag Susan 
been busy hiding from Mother
she keeps with the when you going to get a job song
now adding
you’re almost 30
groan groan grown
of course she’s always right

feelings of loneliness came
ought to make a playlist for these days
not alone days
alone always
rarely lonely
music to make loneliness home
in weeping or eyes eyeing nothing
ears earring nothing
numbed or lulling in despair
no hair pulling
hopefully

is it as bad
as the actual 
 fears 
getting acquainted now
would it answer
whether not weather
 it is something in need of
an umbrella

how has it been with you


J. A. Odartey

Edited 05/21/2021

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